Leslie Feinberg

Leslie Feinberg was a gentle-butch. Ze was, to me, an icon and hero. The world is an infinitely better place for having had Les in it. I miss Les and know there is nobody that can replace Les. Ze was one of a kind.

When I was first peeking my head out of the closet door, I remember that an acquaintance of mine told me that they were going to Provincetown for the weekend. I desperately wanted information about transgender issues. This was before the onset of the internet, back in 1993 or so. So I gave her all the pocket change I had and asked her to bring me back trans books from Provincetown. If anywhere would have them or they would be there, along with the Castro in San Francisco it would be in the legendary P-Town. When she came back she brought me three books: a book about transition and becoming a woman, a book that was a biography by Lou Sullivan called From Female To Male: The Life of Jack Bee Garland. The third book was a novel by one Leslie Feinberg entitled Stone Butch Blues. I read the advice book first because I was very early in my transition and wanted to learn more about what it meant to be a transgender woman. I put the others in my pile of books as I was deeply immersed in school and trying to keep up with my course readings.

One rainy weekend I grew tired of studying and there was no desire to go out due to the weather. And so I went through my pile and picked up Stone Butch Blues. I had no idea what to expect. I read it in one sitting. It is a book that changed my life like no other. It was like holding a mirror up to myself and seeing myself reflected through the words of the novel.

I wrote Leslie a [snail mail letter] and boy do I wish I still had that letter. I told Leslie how much I admired hir writing and how much I would like hir to come to to my campus at UNH to speak. The first time ze called and said, “hi, this is Leslie Feinberg” I almost dropped the phone because I felt like I was talking to royalty. This is totally against Leslie’s frame of reference as a revolutionary communist, but indulge me for a minute.

We were able to have the talk and we filled the house. There were around 200 people in the student center and many of them were young queers like myself who were desperate for the message that Leslie had to impart upon us. Leslie won a standing ovation and many people lined up to buy hir novel and a now-classic pamphlet called “Transgender Liberation: A Movement Whose Time Has Come.” The event was a success and it was great to talk to Leslie in person. Ze was just as friendly and open-hearted as I expected hir to be.

Over the years, I saw Les at various conferences. I saw the video of hir life entitled Outlaw. I saw hir appear on the daytime television talk show The Joan Rivers Show. And most of all I saw hir engage in various forms of activism: around HIV/AIDS, economic justice, socialism, LGBTQ rights, racial justice, anti-incarceration and the CeCe McDonald case. I saw Leslie write about these issues in socialist newspapers.

Once when I saw Leslie doing a reading from hir important book Transgender Warriors, I heard hir talk about being sick. At the time the root cause of the illness was a mystery. Only much later would it emerge that Les was suffering from Lyme disease and co-infections. I was heart-broken to see Leslie’s health deteriorate and how it made it impossible for hir to travel and to engage in writing books. Leslie passed away on November 15, 2014 at aged 65 in Syracuse, New York alongside hir long-term wife/partner Minnie Bruce Pratt.

The legacy of Leslie Feinberg for me is gargantuan. The reason is that Leslie Feinberg taught me to fight back. Ze taught me to revel in my difference as a non-binary gender nonconforming person. Ze taught me to stand up for what I believed in and taught me that no matter how much we had right on our side, the battle was not going to be easy. If I had to name five activist-writers who have made a difference in my life, Leslie would be in the top five. Thanks for all the sacrifices you made for us all Leslie. We will fight to preserve your name and your legacy.

 

Being a Student

The origin of the word student is from the Latin student- ‘applying oneself to,’ and from the verb studere, related to studium ‘painstaking application.’ One might then combine these as proving oneself through painstaking application. The word painstaking is a good one to get at what being a student is like, as does application. You are applying yourself as in putting forth an effort but also applying as in making a formal application or request. The applying that is done to get into college does not stop once the application is accepted. The applying in both senses continues throughout the degree or degrees.

There is a great power imbalance in schools and higher education. The teacher/professor has the bulk of the power and the student has very little. This is why people always talk about a student “sucking up” to the professor. Students feel they have to curry favor with the professor to receive the best possible grade. In my opinion, grades have been the death knell of education. They take the focus of learning away from its best components: curiosity, exploration, engagement, discourse and debate, collaboration, etc. and put them on the letter given out at the end of the course. This makes education about competition and competitiveness rather than learning. It is a means to an end rather than an intellectual enterprise with gifts unrelated to competition with other students.

Neither students nor professors should have to grovel. We should meet each other on equal footing. This is why I like my students to call me by my first name rather than “Dr.” or “Prof.” because it creates greater equity between us. It is interesting to me that some students resist this. I loved calling my college professors by their first name. I understand that it can be taken as a sign of respect, but there are better ways to show mutual respect than titles.

Too much of schooling is based on strict rules and regulations. Assignments become busy work to test knowledge rather than promote exploration of a given topic. True, there are many exceptions and perhaps I am being too negative, but I think education could be so much more. We are stuck in the mud and need to make substantial changes to improve our field. Even if you are an individual who is committed to doing just that, it can be very difficult to do so when you are operating within a particular structure with people with more power than you towering over you. It is even harder for a student to challenge pedagogy. They might do so on an anonymous course evaluation but seldom do they come to the professor to do so because they fear that it might adversely affect their grade. Notice how we come back to the grade once again. I can understand wanting to evaluate a student’s performance, but it has taken on entirely too much importance in today’s academy. Every semester I get multiple grade disputes from students who are angry because they perceive that there grade is too low. On the one hand, I think it is good that students are challenging professors. I just wish it was about something more important, like the pedagogy of the class or the reading list, etc. Why are grades SO important, particularly with millennials? That is something I don’t have answers for but hope to better understand in the coming months because it seems to get worse and worse.

For students there are limitations and possibilities, barriers and explorations. Being a student is not all good or all bad. However, we need to do something about power imbalances between students and teachers and about the central importance placed upon grades. There should be less about being a student that is “painstaking” and more that is liberatory, exploratory, creative and joyful. How will we transform the education system to get there?

Teaching

The most important thing I have to say about teaching is that it is hard as hell. Before I started teaching I had no idea how difficult of a craft it really is. So many of my teachers and professors made it look easy. But as a student, you have a very different vantage point of teaching. You teach a few times a week, assign some papers and test and give out grades. What more to it is there? The answer is: a lot!

With that said, I believe that there are some people who are a natural fit with teaching. I am not one of those people. I struggle with it a lot. I never thought it would be this hard. It truly is an art. You can learn the art over time, but again some people come to understand and embody the art much easier than others. It is also a people-person profession.

I am a die-hard introvert. Some people absolutely hate being alone. I absolutely love being alone. It not only doesn’t bother me, I prefer being alone. I never fully realized how extroverted the profession of teaching is until I taught my first class. I thought to myself: this is going to be interesting. The best teaching to me creates an ideal classroom community. I believe in a classroom community in which the teacher’s power is de-centered. I like to sit in a circle. I like to have discussion-based classes. I like to be one member of the learning community who is on an equal footing and who serves more as a facilitator than as a “sage on the stage.”

Over time, I have gotten more comfortable with classroom dynamics. Every class is different and some are more difficult to manage than others. There is a wide constellation of differing personalities that meld together nicely or that can clash repeatedly. I can never quite tell how a class is going to go. I enter the first day with a lot of nervousness. It takes a minimum of 2-3 weeks to see what a class is really going to be like. There are classes I have really loved and classes I have disliked.

I truly believe that the professor/teacher can only go so far. Can we set the tone? Maybe to some degree, but we need responses. The ideal classroom thrives on an engaged response from students. I tell the students quite candidly on the first day that there is nothing quite as bad as a class where students don’t talk. I make it clear right from the beginning that they are required to speak and be thoroughly engaged. Some obey this directive and others do not, but if at least 50-75% of them do, it can turn into a good class.

I don’t think there will ever be a time when teaching does not give me anxiety. I don’t think there will ever be a time when I think teaching is easy. But maybe the nerves and the difficulty actually help to improve the class. I certainly never take the class for granted nor do I have low expectations. In the 15 weeks that we have, I wanted it to actually mean something. I want the class, or at least part of it, to be memorable and useful. And this goes for both students and teachers. As I said when I started this blog entry, teaching is HARD work. But I have to believe it is worth it and that we make some kind of a difference in our students’ lives.

 

What’s Going On [Part 2]

This foot thing is going to be a long haul. It is so complicated I can’t even explain what’s going on. I finally went to the orthopedist on Friday and what he said was confusing. I have a completely ruptured Achilles tendon. Normally, the response to this is surgery. I have a lot of complicating factors. I have the severe wound on the bottom of my heel and the sides of the heel. This is going to take a long time to heel. Right now I am walking on it which is making it harder to heal. Also, I am diabetic which makes EVERYTHING harder to heal. He feels there would be a lot of complications with surgery and fears recurring foot wounds. So instead of surgery, at least for now, I am going to be fitted for a “crow boot.” I know nothing about it but know that they have to make a mold from my foot and I will have to wear it for a long time, possibly forever, though I hope that is not the case.

This whole issue has been frustrating and worrying. My depression had lifted but more recently it seems to have returned, albeit in a less severe fashion. For some time this has become the “normal” way of life. I have to balance physical health problems with mental health problems. It is a lot to manage. The amount of medications I take alone is so difficult to manage. It is hard not to get discouraged. It is hard not to get frustrated. There are a lot of things I want to do in life and my physical and mental health problems are constant barriers to what I want to do.

To top it off, although classes are over, final grading has begun. I have an extra amount of work this year for some reason and it couldn’t come at a worse time. For instance, this week I have FOUR doctor’s appointments. The amount of time I take with doctors, medications, dressing the wounds, etc. is off the wall. I don’t want it to become the center of my life but it feels like it has. There are so many things to do each and every day and it takes away from things I would much rather be doing.

One of those things is this blog. I am disappointed in myself for not keeping up with my daily practice. Part of the reason has been the health problems. It’s not only the time taken by these problems but also the de-motivating impact that they have upon me. It feels harder to do anything when I could take a nap or just veg out. It definitely is not a happy time in my life and I can tell it is going to be a long haul until it gets better. The other important thing to point out is that it hurts! Both the open wounds and the torn tendon itself cause me a lot of pain and can make it harder to concentrate. It hurts worst when I am walking. I try to keep off it but it is hard to do so when you have things to do and when you are a non-driver. Even if I can’t keep up with my entries, I will try to write these “catch-up” entries that explain what’s going on for me right now.

 

#EverydayAcademic Ableism: Living as a Crip in Higher Ed

I wish I could say I have had better experiences as a crip* in higher education. In actuality, it has been very difficult. Ableism, the hatred and discrimination directed against disabled people, is found throughout society in every cultural institution. The education system is no exception, nor are colleges and universities in particular. I am a person from a working-class family, a first-generation college student, a transgender person, an asexual person, and a person of size. Despite all these challenges and forms of discrimination, none of them prepared me for being a crip. While I don’t like to rank forms of oppression, there is an existential nature to being disabled that is very unique in its vastness.

In this narrative, I will detail some of the challenges I have faced in academia as a disabled person. The hashtag #EverydayAcademicAbleism inspired me to write this piece. In fact, I sent out some tweets under that hashtag. It felt empowering both to write my tweets and to read the tweets composed by many other people. The ubiquity of the tweets reminded me that I am not alone. There are many people: students, faculty and staff alike that are affected by systemic ableism in the academy.

Unfortunately, I am in a Department that is not disability-accessible. There is no elevator that goes up to the second or third floor in Huddleston Hall, one of the oldest buildings on campus. Believe me, it is not lost on us that Women’s Studies is not in an accessible space. We preach social justice and feel terrible that we are located in an inaccessible space. It makes us seem like hypocrites, but it is not the fault of Women’s Studies. It is a systemic problem because there are multiple buildings that are on campus that are still not accessible. This includes academic buildings and residence halls. Because I have a mobility disability that makes climbing stairs difficult to impossible, as well as walking long distances difficult to impossible, it was necessary to move my office. In essence, I was ripped out of my home department and the company of my colleagues due to the inaccessibility of the office space.

My first move was down stairs to the first floor of Huddleston. There was an office available for one semester due to a faculty member leaving. There is an elevator to the first floor but it is for kitchen work/catering of the Huddleston Hall Ballroom. Thus, I always risked taking the elevator into a lavish affair and had to be careful not to do that! It was a nice office but I was only there for 6 months. Next, I was moved to Horton in an office with bright blue walls made of cement. There was a window and a small couch in it. There was also an elevator but there were still other problems.

In addition to needing an elevator, I also need classrooms for the courses that I teach to be as near to my office as possible. In addition to stairs, walking long distances is very difficult for me, particularly when carrying various items. Thus there was never any guarantee of close classrooms and there was a lot of back and forth between our Women’s Studies admin and the registrar, who controls classroom space.

After one year in Horton, which was being renovated for the history department, I was given the boot once again. This time I was moved to Conant which is one of the most decrepit buildings on the whole campus. Although it has an elevator, the office was very run down and old. I tried to make the most of it but found the space depressing to say the least. The elevator had bright, blood-red walls, which reminded me of something out of Stanley Kubrick’s The Shining. The office had no A/C and was dreary to be in with limited light.

My fifth and current office is an office on the ground floor of the newly renovated Ham Smith. My new office is very nice and I am happy to be in it. I really hope I do not have to leave. The office is accessible with an elevator, a bridge to Dimond Library, a gender-inclusive restroom and many classrooms. We are now in the process of trying to make it a permanent thing that my classrooms are always in Ham Smith. As you can see, getting the accommodations I need has been challenging. While I enjoy my office I miss being with my colleagues and wish they could be moved to Ham Smith along with me.

This odyssey brings me to another topic: loneliness and alienation in academia. To put it bluntly, it can be very lonely to be a crip. Our bodies and minds are often different from the “norm.” Often we cannot hide our difference, although some of our disabilities are invisible. Recently my disability has become more severe and I feel literally to be lost in the shuffle. I walk much slower than other people. I can’t do stairs. I have to use ramps and elevators. I am sometimes astounded as I watch people: walk so quickly and run, jump, leap, ride bikes of various kinds, skateboard, bound across campus without effort. As is so often the case, they take their able-bodiedness for granted. I cannot do the things that they do and I sometimes feel a level of sadness about it. It is so hard to be disabled, as it affects every facet of your life. In addition to my mobility disabilities, I have psychiatric disabilities and multiple chronic illnesses. It is a lot to juggle and my heath is always in the forefront of my mind.

It is easy to feel apart from colleagues and students because we are not supposed to talk about disabilities. Disability is cloaked in silence. Being a crip is my everyday life but not in my everyday conversation. This helps to fuel the loneliness and the invisibility of being a crip.

To make change we need to not only make every single space on campus thoroughly disability-accessible, but we must talk about disability, making it a regular topic of conversation in our meetings and help to foster relationships between disabled people on campus: students, faculty and staff. We need to make sure events are truly accessible and welcoming to disabled folks. As an example, my chair moved our department meetings to Ham Smith so it is possible for me to attend. I am thankful for the help I have gotten at our institution. I don’t want it to seem like it has all been negative because there are people trying to help. The problem is not with individuals but it is systemic. Systems needs to change for the benefit of disabled people. At the same time, we have a long way to go to become a more inclusive institution and one that truly values its disabled community members. I hope we all work together to change the campus climate to address ableism and become as accessible as possible.

* Crip is a term used by some disabled people that has been reclaimed. It should not be used by non-disabled people.

The Queen Diva You Best’a Believah: Big Freedia Reframing Pop Culture

Teaching the course “Race, Sexuality & Representation” has been a great joy. To have 15 upper-level students who are Women’s Studies majors and minors has been a privilege. It is also fun to be able to study people I greatly admire, like Marlon Riggs, Essex Hemphill, Audre Lorde, Sylvester and Beyoncé. In this article, I would like to focus on another person that we have studied: Big Freedia. We read Big Freedia’s autobiography and watched a short documentary about her on YouTube. I am a big fan and this article will be largely be me fan-girling about Big Freedia.

I first was introduced to Big Freedia on her TV show on Fuse called Big Freedia: Queen of Bounce. The most recent season was called Big Freedia Bounces Back. Seeing Big Freedia on the screen brought me back to when I was around 10 years old. I was watching a show that has long since been cancelled called Solid Gold. It was kind of like American Bandstand and featured popular artists performing their hits. That week they had Boy George and Culture Club on and I was Transfixed. Finally, I knew I was looking at someone like me, someone who did not fit the cookie-cutter image of traditional men and women. It was so empowering to see a reflection of myself on the television screen.

Big Freedia is a Black, Gay, Gender Nonconforming Icon. Although Freedia identifies as a Gay Man, many people use she/her pronouns and it is believed that this is Freedia’s preference. In honor of Freedia’s preference and femininity, I use feminine pronouns in this article. Like with Boy George, I was transfixed when I first saw Freedia on television. Big Freedia the TV show is not just another reality TV show. It has a lot of heart and it profiles people that we NEVER get to see on TV. Big Freedia is not Transgender, as far as we know, but she is Gender Nonconforming. Perhaps even more importantly, Big Freedia is African American. We don’t see Trans and Gender Nonconforming People of Color on television. Big Freedia having her own TV show, making her own music videos, writing her autobiography and doing many other things is truly revolutionary. It has taken a long time for her to rise in her career and she has worked incredibly hard. I hope she realizes what she means to so many of her fans and what she means to the culture as a whole for LGBTQ+ people, People of Color and many other groups in American culture.

Big Freedia has truly had to crawl her way up the ladder of media success. She was born poor as Freddie Ross in New Orleans and started out singing in the church choir. She switched it up and got involved with the Bounce music scene in New Orleans. Freedia was very close to her mother, Miss V., and her mother supported her in her career and through coming out as Gay. Freedia started performing in the club scene and quickly made a name for herself. She has had A LOT of challenges to deal with in her meteoric rise in the Bounce music industry. These have included the death of her beloved mother at a young age from cancer, being shot twice in an attempted crime, Hurricane Katrina, the death of colleagues, lots of management changes over the course of her career, and a legal problem that made headlines when she was accused of Section 8 theft.

I absolutely love Big Freedia’s music videos. My favorite one is called “Explode.” In it, she begins by saying:

“My music, it makes me feel good about what I do and the culture that I represent. People get confused by if I am ‘he’ or ‘she.’ I am more than just Big Freedia. I am more than just Queen Diva. I am more than just Freddie Ross. I am Me. I am the Ambassador, representing for New Orleans and for bounce music. So many things in my head sometimes, it just all makes me want to explode.”

The video then goes on to show Big Freedia and her troop of dancers, often called shakers, dancing on the street, in a laundromat and in a club. Big Freedia’s style might best be termed “androgynous royalty.” I particularly like how they are engaging in twerking in the laundromat. I go to the laundry every week with my mom and it is a pretty dismal place. As many people have commented, bounce music is happy music. It is by definition fast paced and euphoric. So Big Freedia and her shakers taking over the laundromat is a form of breaking up the mundane practice of washing and drying clothes. When Freedia and her dancers take over the street, which occurs in videos like “Duffy”, they literally stop traffic. I see this as a decolonization of space: a decolonization by Blackness, Queerness, and Gender Nonconformity. It is reclamation of territory that has been dominated by whites, heterosexuals and cisgender people.

Freedia reframes popular culture in the same way that she reframes identity. In Euro-American identity politics, there are very clear demarcations between “Gay Man” and “Transgender.” While I am not making the assertion that Freedia is Transgender since she has said explicitly that she is not, I am asserting that her Gender Nonconformity and Queerness mix together in a very fluid way. Freedia’s best friend and fellow Bounce music artist Katey Red is a Trans woman so Freedia is very familiar with Trans identity. Freedia may identify as a Gay Man but prefers the use of feminine pronouns. I think Freedia challenges the fixity of a Euro-American paradigm that would see “Gay Male” and “Transgender Woman” as absolutely antithetical. Big Freedia’s Queerness is complex and challenges us to re-think the total separateness of gender identity, gender expression and sexual orientation and how we might rework these entities in very creative ways.

Finally, I wish to end this piece by saying that Big Freedia is Royalty. There is a reason she is called the QUEEN Diva. There is a reason there is such a thing as Drag Queens and Drag Kings. In a society that hates Blackness, that hates Queerness, that hates Gender Variance, for a Black, Queer, Gender Nonconforming person to demand their right to the throne is revolutionary. Big Freedia will never know how many countless people she has helped to honor their own uniqueness and claim their own nobility. We are all majestic and remarkable, larger-than-life figures like Big Freedia remind us of exactly that.

 

 

“No Fats, No Fems, No Blacks, No Asians”: Interrogating Whiteness and Its Collusion with Thinness and Hyper-Masculinity in Queer Communities

I have a t-shirt that says “More Fats More Fems.” It is a direct confrontation to the “no fats, no fems” rhetoric that is used in many gay personal ads or app profiles. I have seen this for many years. In addition, “no Blacks, No Asians” is also frequently used, along with an aversion towards transgender people.

Most of these ads emanate from white, cisgender, gay men. White supremacy, thin supremacy and cis supremacy are huge problems in the GLBTQ community. I have found this out the hard way through my own experience. I am oppressed by two of these axes of oppression and privileged by the third. I will talk about the oppression first and then end with the way I am privileged.

I am fat and femme. In 1973, I was assigned male at birth. Growing up, I always knew I was not a boy. I was a feminine-acting and a gender nonconforming child. My gender creativity did not sit well with my peers or even my own family. For my first six years of existence, I was just me and living life with my parents and siblings. But as soon as I went to elementary school, I was thrown to the wolves. It was like a trial by fire. The playground was a battleground for me. I was brutally bullied from grades k-12 and grew increasingly aware of the fact that I was femme. When I came out into the gay community as an undergrad I was shocked by the level of femmephobia or effemiphobia. Fem gay men were completely marginalized. There was a tremendous emphasis on being masculine. Masculinity was seen as sexy and male-assigned people who were fem/me or feminine were seen as sexually and socially undesirable. I was shocked because I erroneously assumed that a group that was discriminated against would not discriminate against members of their own community. There were lots of fem/me gay and queer men that I met and they too faced marginalization from the community. When I came out as trans the anti-femme hatred only intensified and I realized how much misogyny, sexism, effemiphobia and transphobia there was in the gay and lesbian community.

I was also a chubby child and was bullied for being fat. I look back at chubby photos of myself as a child now and think I look cute. At the time, having my appearance mocked was devastating. I was already being teased mercilessly for being a feminine boy. Being made fun of for my weight and appearance dragged me down even further. I am not a lifelong fatty. When I hit puberty, I zoomed up in height [eventually reaching a height of 6’6”] and became really skinny for about 15 years. However, when I hit 30, my weight started to shoot up. This was similar to my other family members. I went from my lowest adult weight of around 200 to my current weight of over 400 pounds. I doubled in size. I have seen the way people treated me then versus the way they treat me now, including in the queer community. One time at a trans event, a skinny trans woman gave me the dirtiest look because apparently I was taking too much food from the buffet. I could no longer enjoy the event and felt like crying. The standard in the LGBTQ community is thin. The community as a whole is thin supremacist. The beauty standards for trans women or transfeminine people is the same as dominant culture: thin, dainty and petite. As a 6’6”, 425 pound transfeminine non-binary person, I am a TransAmazon. I do not fit the dominant beauty standards of cis or trans communities. It is very difficult to realize how marginalized I am in this society.

Transmisogyny and Fatphobia are issues that I care deeply about. I am affected by both problems and am the victim of these forms of oppression. However, I am also white. As a white person, I receive white privilege. This refers to unearned benefits and advantages that a person receives simply for having white skin. I first became aware of my whiteness in 1992. I was taking a Black Studies course and it was also the year that there were riots in Los Angeles due to the fact that the Black motorist Rodney King was brutally beaten by cops and the cops were exonerated by an all-white jury. This was done even though there was a video of the assault. I could not believe this injustice and was embarrassed to belong to a race that was so hateful and so dedicated to spreading white supremacy and dominance.

When I first came out, one of my best friends was a Black, bisexual woman. Her coming out paralleled my own coming out as queer and trans. We were both in a white, cisgender, gay and lesbian community and organization. As I began to experience transphobia, I noticed that she began to experience racism and biphobia. White lesbians and gay men treated her differently and made inferences about her identity. She got sick and tired of the racist treatment and had me read a letter to the LGBT group addressing her mistreatment. Her experience sadly was not unique. Beginning in the 70s and 80s, women of color began to speak out and write essays about racism in Women’s Studies, feminism and the lesbian Community.

Women of color and lesbian of color feminists sounded the alarm about racism in white-dominated feminist and lesbian spaces. Audre Lorde emerged as a leader who wrote and spoke extensively about racism in the women’s movement and in the lesbian community. She wrote that “your silence will not protect you” and encouraged women of color and queer women of color in particular to speak out about racism, sexism, homophobia and other forms of discrimination.

It was through my friend’s experiences and then through my immersion in Women’s Studies that I learned about racism and my own white privilege. I realized that I have white privilege in the LGBTQ community and that there are many ways in which white people receive better treatment in both the mainstream and in the subcultures. LGBTQ people of color face racism in the white dominated LGBTQ community and sometimes homophobia and transphobia in communities of color. This means that it is often hard to find a home where they truly feel valued. It speaks to the need for queer and trans people of color communities to have their own groups and spaces that are safe and inclusive.

In conclusion, the “no fats, no fems, no Blacks, no Asians” phrase is absolutely despicable. This phrase speaks to the need to combat racism, fatphobia and femme-phobia within the LGBTQ community. One of the things that has truly helped in the past several decades has been the emphasis on intersectionality. Now people are looking at what it means to be a queer person of color or a fat feminist or an Asian trans man etc. because they are putting together multiple forms of identity and analyzing multiple forms of oppression. My hope is that people will analyze both how they are oppressed and how they are privileged and work towards a community of diversity, inclusion and respect.